Today sucked, and every attempt I’ve made at writing why has just ended up just being whiny.
So instead, I’ll just tell you that when I was in undergrad and a med student told me their day sucked, I always pictured them studying like crazy – spending 10 hours reading large books, eating entire meals from the library’s cart so they could stake out a corner and study medical concepts all day.
Honestly, while I empathized, that image never really bothered me. I’m a nerd. That pretty much sounds like my ideal week day.
But now I realize that med students are all pretty nerdy, and most of us would be happy with the day I just described – thrilled, in fact, if we got a lot done.
So today sucked because we had no time to study. It’s that terrible feeling of being behind, realizing every day will be like this, wondering how many days you can possibly catch up on in 1 weekend, realizing that you’ve already passed any reasonable estimate of that number, and that every minute the clock ticks is a minute off of your sleep tonight – all because you’re sitting in a classroom being asked to break into small groups* and delve into deep and meaningful epidemiological concepts such as “cholera = bad” and “John Snow = good”.
Tomorrow I’m going to skip class and study yesterday’s immunology lectures instead. I mean, it’s either that, or stay up so late that I can’t pay attention during tomorrow’s lecture anyways. It’s a pretty guiltless decision.