Passing is a 70%, and if I missed every single question I put an “unsure” mark next to, then I got a 71%. It could honestly go either way.
For some weird reason, I’m not too broken up about that. A few months ago it would’ve been like the end of the world to me, but on this one, I think my reaction to finding out I failed would be, “Yeah, that’s fair.” I just feel like every lecture I took notes on went straight from my pen into the air and missed my brain entirely, and every assigned and unassigned reading really stuck with me strongly, but wasn’t tested.
Granted, I took developmental biology in college, so the concepts weren’t foreign to me. I just couldn’t bring myself to study the tiny details – I tried, but I kept finding something more entertaining to do instead, and then later I’d study more big-picture concepts and diseases and call it a day. But look, at one point in this test, we needed to know whether MAP Kinase Kinase Kinase is a serine-threonine kinase or a tyrosine kinase.
Are you kidding me? I knew the pathway it belongs to uses a tyrosine kinase receptor, I knew the names of all the downstream proteins and the significant details, but I didn’t think I was supposed to go look each of them up in PubMed and make little charts. I mean, come on.
Anyway, it’s over. If I have to retake it during winter break, it’ll just be a blow to my ego. Maybe I’ll learn something that way. I’ll get over it.
I don’t honestly know if that’s a healthy attitude. I guess I’m too tired to care. I just want to wear pajamas and drink tea and spend the afternoon watching all the Raising Hope episodes I’ve missed.